Practical Christianity:  The Forged Soul

Prologue Introduction

Part One of Practical Christianity asked a simple question:  What does Scripture say about the Christian life—faith, forgiveness, identity, prayer, endurance—and how do these truths shape the believer from the inside out?  Every message in that first section was designed to build a foundation:  not a list of doctrines to memorize, but a way of thinking, living, and evaluating the world that rests entirely on the character of Christ.  Those early messages were about preparing the heart.

Part Two turns the lens outward.
Now we ask a harder question:  How does a Christian walk through a world shaped by trauma, anxiety, politics, sexuality, money, technology, and cultural confusion—and still remain faithful to Christ?  This shift matters because the Bible was never meant to be studied in isolation or theory.  It was meant to confront the real fractures of our age.  Where Part One focused on biblical truths that require practice, Part Two focuses on real-world issues that require a biblical backbone.  You will feel the difference immediately:  the stakes rise, the topics get heavier, and the disguises fall away.

That is why The Forged Soul stands at the doorway of this new section.

Before we examine the world, we must tell the truth about the people walking into it.  We must name what trauma builds, what suffering shapes, what survival demands—and how Christ meets us even in the places where our language runs out.  This message is not an appendix to the first half or an introduction to the second.  It is the bridge between the two, the hinge, the turning point.  Without this pivot, the rest of Part Two would feel detached and disjointed.

But with it, everything that follows becomes clear.

Floatie:  The Boy, the Bear, and the God Who Stayed

Psalm 27:10  For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in.(ESV)

When I was a kid, I didn’t have a comfort blanket.  What I had was a small stuffed koala named Pete—gray, soft, unremarkable, but absolutely vital.  When my home split, when the adults in my life couldn’t hold their own worlds together—much less mine—Pete became the one steady thing in the middle of chaos.  He came with me everywhere.  Then he stayed on my bed when I left for school.  Later, he stayed in my bag when I was homeless.  He sat on my dresser when I lived with my dad.  He moved with me into my marriage, into my adulthood, into the house where he still lives today.

I didn’t know it then, but Pete wasn’t about comfort.  He was about presence.  He was about not being alone.  He was about surviving the nights when fear tasted like metal and grief tasted like bile.  I didn’t know it then, but God was already there—not in the bear, but in the boy who refused to let go of the last thing he trusted.

Some people grow up with guardian angel stories.  I grew up with a koala named Pete.
But looking back with adult eyes and redeemed memory, I can see the truth:  A hand was on my life long before I knew His name.


✒️ Forge:  How Trauma Teaches a Child to Survive Without Teaching Them How to Live

Trauma doesn’t teach children how to cope.  It teaches them how to endure.

Pete wasn’t just a toy.  He was an anchor point—a tether that kept the world from feeling bottomless.

When a child can’t rely on:

  • parents,
  • consistency,
  • affection,
  • safety,

…the child will cling to anything that doesn’t disappear.

That’s not weakness.  That’s survival engineering.  It’s the soul’s way of saying, “I will not die here.”

And when children survive long trauma without guidance, they learn things adults never intend to teach:

  • Presence = safety
  • Absence = danger
  • Emotion = a luxury
  • Imagination = a weapon
  • Pattern recognition = armor
  • Truth = oxygen
  • Masks = detectable
  • And vulnerability = something to avoid at all costs

The world calls this dysfunctional.  But God calls it resilient.

Psalm 34:18  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.(ESV)

I didn’t know it then, but the God who would one day call me was already strengthening the scaffolding of a child who refused to break.


⚒️ Anvil:  What Remains When Everything Human Is Stripped Away

This is the part most people never talk about—not because it’s dramatic, but because it’s honest.

If trauma lasts long enough…
If the world collapses hard enough…
If hunger bites deep enough—physically, emotionally, spiritually—you discover a version of yourself most people never meet.

Not a monster.  Not evil.  Not possessed.  Just the core, the engine.  The raw, unfiltered, unadorned human will.

It is:

  • cold because warmth requires safety
  • focused because distraction costs survival
  • emotionless because emotion burns energy
  • relentless because giving up isn’t an option
  • perceptive because ignorance is fatal
  • honest because lies waste time

Most people never reach that state.  Most people never need to.  Most people fear it because they’ve never stood where everything unnecessary is burned away.

But those who have survived long-term trauma know this truth:

When everything else is stripped away, what remains is not evil.
What remains is you—the part God built from bedrock.

The danger isn’t in seeing your core.  The danger is not knowing the difference between your core and the shadow that tries to replace it.

Ephesians 6:12  For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.(ESV)

There is a malevolent force that waits for the stripped-down moment—the spiritual parasite, the entity of untruth, the whisper that says:  “Let me take over.  You’ve suffered enough.  Let me decide for you.”

That’s where people fall.  But I didn’t.
And if you’ve survived similar things, neither did you.  Because the core God built—the one forged in childhood nights, hunger, abandonment, and silence—is stronger than the shadow that wants to devour it.


🔥 Ember:  The Return—Choosing Humanity After You’ve Seen the Depths

Survival mode isn’t living.  It’s enduring.  The miracle isn’t that I discovered my core.  The miracle is that I came back from it.

Back into:

  • relationship
  • covenant
  • conscience
  • compassion
  • chosen goodness
  • chosen restraint
  • chosen truth

Goodness that is chosen is the only goodness that matters.

Anyone can be kind when the world is kind.  But only those who have stood at the bottom of themselves can choose kindness when the world gives them no reason to.  Only those who have stood in the shadow return with the ability to say:  “I know what waits in the dark.  I refuse to let it replace me.”

This is where Christ enters—not as a comfort, but as a Commander.  Not as a therapist, but as a Redeemer who meets you in the basement of your soul and leads you back upstairs.

Trauma survivors don’t need clichés.  We need resurrection.


🌿 Covenant Triumph:  Pete Stayed—But I Grew

Pete still sits in my house.  Not because I need him anymore, but because he is part of the story.

I don’t need a stuffed koala now.
I don’t need to check that he’s on my bed.
I don’t need the anchor of childhood coping.

Because my wife stands where Pete once stood—not as a comfort blanket, but as covenant.

Because Christ stands where fear once lived—not as an idea, but as presence.

Because the boy who clung to a bear is gone.

But the man forged from those years now reaches back to tell others:

You can survive.
You can endure.
You can descend into the depths and still come home.
You can be stripped to your core and still return with something holy intact.

Pete taught me presence.  Trauma taught me truth.  Christ taught me resurrection.

And if you’ve lived through the kind of darkness I have—if you’ve felt alone long enough to taste it—hear me clearly:

You are not alone now.
You never were.
And you can come back from the depths.
I did.


[⚓ Floatie] [✒️ Forge] [⚒️ Anvil] [🔥 Ember] [🌿 Covenant Triumph]
This post follows the Forge Baseline Rule—layered truth for the discerning remnant.

14 responses to “Practical Christianity:  The Forged Soul”

  1. RW - Disciple of Yahshua Avatar
    RW – Disciple of Yahshua

    I can’t tell you enough how grateful I am that you’re able to put into words some of the depths of pain and sorrow that some have had to endure.

    “The danger isn’t in seeing your core.  The danger is not knowing the difference between your core and the shadow that tries to replace it.”

    Even having lived through this quote, I still struggle with the temptation to allow the shadow, the imposter, to be in the forefront. It is with daily effort that I have to surrender to Abba. At times it is easier than others, but always I’m reminded (sometimes through your messages) that I need a savior now as much or more than I needed Him then. The difference is, I know who He is now and I didn’t back then. I know I can trust Him now, when I couldn’t trust anything back then. I’m also reminded that those who endured, do so for a reason, for a purpose. Abba doesn’t waste a hurt, He uses them to bring light and hope to others who have yet to find their way to Him.

    Thank you for the daily encouragement!

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    1. Don Avatar
      Don

      To be honest, this message almost broke me. It began with a single thought. I stopped to realize that I was craving my wife’s presence. I sent her a message just to reach out and let her know that I was thinking of her. Then I was asked why I needed her. I followed that trail back to a bear. I realized that she had replaced Pete. It was almost the moment I met her. It wasn’t fair to her that she replaced that silly bear. The next thought was the landmine I’ve been hunting for. “Maybe one day I’ll be healed enough that I’ll be able to get rid of Pete.”

      I hadn’t stopped to think about that bear for more than a moment for decades. I never could put into words why I fought so hard against getting rid of that one thing even when I was willing to get rid of so much else. After writing that post I could barely function. I tried to read the post to my wife because I always try to share breakthroughs with her. I couldn’t even read the post. She had to.

      Then she said that this was a part of my life that she never knew about. I had never actually told her how I got the bear or what he meant to me. We actually live three houses down from the place where my mom gave me that bear.

      I think that between this message and the one on temptation I’m completely drained. I know that the messages to come are going to be even heavier, but I’m looking forward to them. God is good, and I’m grateful for this journey. I’m also grateful to know that I’m not alone on the path.

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  2. cleaners4seniors Avatar

    Another great reading that reaches the depth of my soul!
    Thank you.
    I had Frumpy a long eared dog 😍
    I had an imagination that allowed me to become everything I wasn’t allowed to be . I had a great time playing and creating my own world.
    I can again answer questions that I never understood… only knew something was there .
    Moms silent abuse and my escape from dads temper.
    I was able to safely disappear when dad was mad. But was too little to escape my moms . One I was under her control and two I was a little tike. Not even knowing what she was doing . I only remember the bad feelings and can see (understand), and heal as God unfolds these things.
    Very interesting.
    Now….
    The hard part. Seperating personality what is good , from the bad. Understanding how my actions effect others in negative ways.
    I never knew….
    🙏✝️

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    1. Don Avatar
      Don

      The angry temper is nearly always easier to escape than the quiet hurt. One is bound by rules that can be understood in order to survive. The other is a predator seeking prey. The person doesn’t always know that they’ve become the predator. The thing I hate so much about this kind of situation is that these people often don’t realize that they are doing the very thing that was done to them. The ones that do often don’t know how to stop it or do otherwise. They get trapped by their own trauma so much that they end up mirroring that into the world.

      I’ve seen it with wild drunks and abuses of all kinds. The very thing used to hurt someone often becomes the weapon they use on others in an attempt to make themselves feel better.

      This doesn’t explain every situation. It also doesn’t excuse any behaviors like that. I keep going back to that saying “hurt people hurt people”.

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      1. cleaners4seniors Avatar

        Well I am not sure why at 3 or 4 I sat alone in my high chair, with soap in my mouth …watching my mom leave the room. Or why at 5 I was left alone in a car during a thunder/ lightning storm while she went into a home to sell Avon (?) .. but never came out for me. , until dark.
        Idk why after my two older sisters were off to school .. I was usually alone feeling scared.
        My mom always creeped me out . I never liked her affection either.
        We never got along. All my good memories are when the other sisters were there.
        Or my dad took me with him.
        This is only a very small part but it comes together slowly in pieces.

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      2. Don Avatar
        Don

        You don’t have to understand why she did the things she did. You don’t have to have good memories of her or your dad. Those things aren’t required of you. What is required of you is forgiveness for them so that you don’t carry that trauma into other conversations. I know that it leaves an aching emptiness where love should have been. I know the questions that sometimes don’t want to be asked. I know the pain of wondering what you did to deserve that. You also don’t have to put it all together in one sitting. This kind of wound took a long time to make. It might take just as long to fully heal. Some wounds may not be healed until we see Jesus face-to-face.

        I remember the long line of new faces in our house when dad was away. Each one introduced to her by “family” who hated my dad. I also remember the many overdoses caused by someone desperate to stop the pain— physical, emotional, and spiritual—brought on by decisions and weakness. The regret of decisions made and the hopelessness of feeling trapped, forced to make them all over again. It got so bad that my sister (10-11), brother (8-9), and I (3-4) all knew our roles any time one of us found mom. We kept pillows and blankets on the lower shelves so I could reach them. That was my job. My brother knew who to call and what to say. Our sister would wait by the road because she couldn’t do anything else in her normally panicked state. The ambulance drivers all knew to look for her even if we moved, something we did every other month or so. If one happened to be driving by and she was standing by the road they would stop to check on us. The doctors knew us all by name. We would usually get a sucker from somebody involved. I always grabbed the lime or cherry ones because my dad liked those.

        I’m blessed with understanding why mom was the way she was. Yes, that helped me to stop blaming her, being angry with her, and ultimately forgive her for her brokenness. I never excused it. I did forgive her. Even as angry with her as I always was, I know that if the option to move back in with her had ever presented itself that I would have jumped on that opportunity and not looked back. This held true even after she moved states and left my brother behind to be homeless for the next four years. I would still have gone back.

        Do me a favor and don’t ever reveal anything to me or anyone else that you are not comfortable with. My life is, for the most part, an open book, and I’ll always answer questions as truthfully as I can, even if there is no context behind them. I rarely get embarrassed. I’m pretty difficult to offend. I don’t want you to dig into territory that will hurt you before you’re ready for it. I’ve sat with my wounds for a long time. I’ve gotten to know them like old friends. If you feel led to reveal something or talk about something, know that I won’t shy away. I won’t judge. I might offer advice or share an experience of my own that what you reveal brings to my mind. I’m never going to be offended if you don’t care for my advice and don’t listen. There will be things I can’t know about the situation. I’m fine with that. I won’t intentionally over step my bounds. I have nothing but respect for you, your life, your experiences, and your choices. I don’t have to agree with them. That’s not for me to do. My job is, was, and always will be to show you, or anyone else, the love that Jesus showed me. I know that I will fall short of that, but God willing, I will never fail to at least point to His perfect example.

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      3. cleaners4seniors Avatar

        Im sharing very briefly within private boundaries. Only because this is public and alot of personal things I’ve worked over years of sobriety recovery.
        Whats coming up most recently is my fear of and failure to commit.
        Everything Im able to take to next level has been most helpful. Things (memories), come anytime . I totally trust Gods timing.
        I mentioned how my Bible teacher and trusted mentor passed away .. since I’ve had nonone to replace them. So I read/study pray often. Daily usually… sometimes all day.
        I really enjoy breakthroughs.
        Most recently my situation with the scammer hurt me badly. I felt so ashamed and confused.
        But Im back on track now. I still do not understand some things but like you said about my parents, “I don’t need to”.
        My parents have both passed.
        Nothing has risen up yet with my sisters (3 left). I have boundaries in place , for during my mothers passing, I backed off completely.
        I had to. My health was being effected.

        Thank you for all you share. I read daily.. usually multiple times . With scripture and additional sermons on subjects that Im trying to learn.
        I’ve never thought about ‘becoming’ before.
        I never realized my survival and work mode wasnt the full purpose for me. I never expected anything more .
        So this is a new door open. Whatever it is . It will be.
        I trust Jesus completely.

        Every stage of life so far has been an adventure . I guess Im still going.
        I so need to learn balance and be very thoughtful with my words.
        🙏🕊️

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      4. cleaners4seniors Avatar

        Good morning
        After reading through this again because Putting myself to the side , allows me to hear your story more clearly. I realize your relationship with your mom was loving and forgiving. In expressing how you would have returned had you the chance….
        First off Im sorry. A child going through these experiences is just very sad 😢.
        I always strived to be the best mom and not repeat or allow my son to experience unnecessary (sin of me/others), if I could. Naturally no parent is able to accomplish this.. learn as you go parenthood
        responsibly. But I loved being a mom and did ok . Thank God 🙏
        Back to topic
        I never desired to return to live with either parent. They divorced I was 12-13. Dad ended up relocating to Fl and remarried, mother continued to marry and prioritized her male addiction after her put the wine jug down , never stopped script meds .
        (I see/make sense alot of this backstory -with her now).
        I always returned for a relationship, but we never could manage it , mostly I believe was the addictions. The multiple personalities, continued with mind games , jealousy and whatever else . Our differences in lifestyle and (Jesus vs mary), clashed as well.
        (Short version)
        Interesting though , now I can see I never desired her , really. I never considered her being a hurt person.
        I did conclude she was sick in the mind and could not recover or be the mother I longed for. I felt that brought me to a place of acceptance. I tried sorrowfully hard to forgive all things throughout our adult lives that continued to hurt me . At the same time , understanding respectfully she had differing relationships with each one of us girls 5 in total/ 4 of us remain. Left to our own after the divorce.. I had dad , but didn’t come to Fl until his cancer .
        We had no leader or structure or foundation after the eldest sister and her husband both passed away young. They were the head, the glue and the only ‘ home/ family life we had. (Abusive marriage but filled with love for others) ..!! Talk about mixed emotions. 😢❤️
        Back to topic
        My thoughts of mother (now), are a relief she’s passed on . Nothing between us changed or healed. But I concluded at the point my health was no longer able to try to honor and love her and my siblings with all their burdens. It was so heavy and hurtful. I had to let go…
        So my mother passing has set ne free from pain. I felt like and prayed continuously for her salvation and forgiveness for giving up.
        Im rambling here Trying to piece things together but.. I can not discuss this with any family. Not one. For many many many reasons.
        But I admire that you were still a loving child , with a yearning for your mom and home.
        Thats my point . I wasnt . I was content being free and independent. I created a functional
        ‘ survival’ that worked. I never thought much about any of this..
        I had good skills to work and everything my dad taught me and how he raised me , worked perfectly. Within confines of ‘survival’ . I can see that now. I never became , never emotionally grew up enough to deal with anything’ outside’ of my limits.
        I set healthy boundaries once I learned I could. But as good as that served for times , I see now, this does not apply to everyone and everything. I also can see , my functional life in search of organization and peace .. just simply tosses out or eliminates anything I have ‘ no place’ to put it.
        In closing … This is a wonderful eye opener . And heartbreaker snd tear jerker at the same time.
        Even though I have no clue (yet), how these behaviors or feelings/reactions will actually change . Im thrilled to see more of my shortcomings.
        Back to topic
        Never desired to go back . I will seek to find peace with this 🙏

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      5. Don Avatar
        Don

        I was three when my parents divorced. A bit of back story to explain the divorce. I know I’ve shared this before, but I don’t know if I shared it with you. Here goes…

        My birth caused an arterial valve in my mom’s head to rupture. It was a slow bleed. She started getting headaches and having vision problems. It took them six months to figure out the problem. It was fairly new technology that showed the issue. The doctor told my parents that the surgery was risky. It had only been done a couple of times. There was little hope for success with it, but none without.

        Obviously, they had the surgery. She lived. Her memory was completely erased. She didn’t know I had been born. She had no idea that she was married. She understood the concept of family. They hated my dad. He was a great guy until he told her to stop giving them money.

        The surgery gave them the opportunity to start throwing guys at mom in the hopes that she would like one. It took three years, but they finally found one.

        He was a real monster. A real predator in every sense.

        The day after the divorce was final mom remarried this monster. Legally in Missouri you have to be divorced for thirty days before you get remarried. If you remarry in that window the previous partner can have the marriage annulled. That first thirty days was bliss. We went out to eat. We went to Silver Dollar City. Anything we wanted we got.

        That thirty-first day I watched him throw my mom down a flight of stairs. That began two years of hell. Constant fighting. Constant violence.

        I don’t need to go into details.

        Because of my young age I was left with that craving for my parents. They weren’t bad people. They were just broken. Neither one was violent. They both actually did love me to the best of their abilities. They were just so broken that they couldn’t live that out. They couldn’t protect me from their brokenness.

        My brother was more in your position. He’s five years older than me. He remembers time before me. He was able to form personal boundaries. He also only lived at home four years after mom finally left the monster. That’s a long story.

        My brother was forced to be independent at an early age. He anchored himself in our maternal grandmother, who gets a lot of the credit for keeping us alive. She, unfortunately, died of cancer just after I turned five. One aunt blamed us three kids for her death. She told my brother this. He never forgot it.

        The guy that we were told was my brother’s dad (turned out to not be true) was a true bum. Alcoholic. Occasionally violent. Could have been a decent guy if not for the addiction.

        So, my brother was much better at not needing our parents. He learned early to do everything for himself.

        I think it was mainly our different ages and maturity levels that set us both on the paths we walked even though we went through a lot of the same things.

        A lot of how you lived and grew up is influencing how you live now. Not saying it’s wrong, just encouraging you to take time to look at the things you do now to trace them back to the reason why. It’s perfectly fine to not change these things. It’s just good practice to know why you do the things you do. If you understand the origin of reason then you can take full control over the results of those decisions. You can also decide that this is not how you want to live. You can make different choices because you know why you made those decisions in the past.

        Anyway, now I’m starting to ramble. Thank you for sharing. It means a lot to me that you’d trust me to share this.

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      6. cleaners4seniors Avatar

        Thanks! Again I see through your personal experience an understanding for mine.
        For instance, the different ages of children and their experiences.
        The dysfunction that effects all the loved ones. The breakdown of what probably could have been a good life (family).
        As for noticing my patterns of how or why I react or handle situations, you are right. As they worked well most of my life, they (some of them), are no longer applicable. The growing in Jesus changed everything. Now, the steps as I see.. clearly. I think 🤔 He shines light on what needs to go.
        All I know is pray until I (as I), get on it , with correct directions. Faith believing without doubt.. it comes to pass. 🙏
        This ongoing process is such a blessing. My plateaus of rest are also. **Letting go of my false perfection (must come first) idea was a huge open door … I welcome .
        Getting over my fears or at least acknowledging them allowed me this freedom.
        That was a dad thing. Doing everything right. He was militarized.
        His punishment was firm and discipline strict. Thats the reason I obeyed him.
        He asked me before he died. What did I do wrong raising you girls?
        (Because we all went haywire after parents divorced)
        I told him. Well You did alot right, actually Biblically. However, you were the iron fist we feared. Once you were no longer there .. we were all free to do as we pleased.
        If you taught us to fear God , maybe it would have been different.

        Btw
        My dad was catholic . But
        When I was saved (Born Again), he was visiting Ct and we always got together. I was crying to him because the family hated me and rejected me and threw me out after I left catholic religion.
        He said.. just do what God tells you.
        That was a blessed.
        He also repented and asked Jesus to forgive him and was spiritually Born Again on Dec 18 . I was there.
        He passed May 31.
        That was my answered prayer and why I asked God to relocate me and my son to Fl.
        He was dying, I was CNA and he was lost 😓
        I arrived Dec 6. Praise the Lord . It was only twelve days after … ✝️

        My mom on the other hand. Loved and confessed her love for mary.
        Proudly wore her medals pinned to her shirt, praying to her saints.
        Continuing to reject me and rub it all in my face … as I tried hard to just love her as she passed.
        Her and my sisters all lied to me and manipulated me until I shut them off.
        My brain was exploding and heart shattered.
        This has been my prayer, oh Lord how do I honor this mother when she goes out of her way to keep me away?
        I still catch myself praying for her and correct myself , she passed in may.
        Anyhow. Thank you again.
        Im so blessed we both ramble and know . Its ok. 🙏

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      7. Don Avatar
        Don

        I think that a lot of churches teach “honor thy mother and father” wrongly. There is a difference between honor and obedience. Most churches teach that obedience is the same thing as honor. We are taught that disagreeing with them or questioning them is dishonor. That’s simply not the case. We can honor our parents and not have anything to do with them. My brother was married to a truly horrible woman. The kind that makes all men question the need for marriage. She cheated on him and kept lying about it. I don’t need to go into details about how horrible of a person she was. I’ll just say that my brother got custody of the kids in the divorce in a county the gave woman custody automatically. After the divorce, our mom kept contact with the ex. When the ex took him to court for the annual “let’s waste time and money by making up stuff to justify this going back to court” social gathering, mom sat on her side. My brother confronted her after that. He wanted to know why she maintained contact with her. He told her that she shouldn’t be talking to her. My mom got mad and told him that he had no right to tell her who she could and couldn’t be friends with. He said, “If you were half a mother, I wouldn’t have to.” She told him to go to hell and hung up on him.

        We didn’t talk to her for five years after that. My sister called and said that mom was in the hospital on hospice with cancer.

        My brother and I both left work to make the trip to see her. We went every weekend until she died.

        In that time, I was able to talk with her about a lot of the things in my life that I had questions about. I talked with her about faith and salvation. She had given her heart to Jesus already but reconfirmed it with me there. I got to tell her goodbye before she slipped into the coma and died. Her husband, Tom, of 33 years died just three months later. He died of a broken heart. I can say a lot of things about Tom, but he was always right with mom. He always treated her right. He kept her feet on the ground and is ultimately the reason she became a decent human being. He kept her from giving in to a lot of the darker impulses.

        I was also able to have many of these conversations with my dad before he died. I was the last one to see him alive and the last words we ever said to each other were “I love you.” I’ve been blessed to know where my parents both stood when they died. I was able to get a lot of questions answered before they died because they both were forced into positions where they were faced with mortality. It’s funny how the realization that you will die changes how we view life. The things we thought were priorities are suddenly not important. We start trying to put things in the right order. John the Baptist was born knowing that he would not live to see old age. He knew that his life would have to go before Jesus could shine. He walked into that fully committed to that path. Imagine what the world would be if everyone was completely aware of the proper order of priorities and lived only for those priorities. If people didn’t get lost focusing on the wrong things until it’s too late? The world would be a drastically different place.

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      8. cleaners4seniors Avatar

        Amen 🙏
        I didnt go to ct. cant travel.
        I told my mom over the phone but she would never have time to talk to me. All through her last year on earth. My three sisters took over her texts. And only lied to me about everything, Im the only one in healthcare too . They only demanded I come at their convenience (the end), asked me for money, and once I did neither. They created life narratives about me and crushed me up some more.
        I totally backed off at the point I realized, it was best. I think it was not only the way our relationships have always been. Manipulated controled and confused.
        (Im in Fl 23 years)… because I never returned after my dad passed.
        But Had my mother no children there, I would have been.
        They forget my mom lived here in fl 120 miles south of my location and I was driving back & forth because I promised my oldest sister ( who was dying), that I would. I relocated near my mom to discover her pill addiction (not as we suspected alzheimers). My sisters the three living wouldn’t talk about it.
        (Short version)
        It just goes on and on . They have no clue at all the heartbreak the sorrow the grieving I have felt for most of my life. I never badmouthed my mother. Did my part taking care of her needs over many years. Told all my sisters, me and mom have our own relationship, ya’all dont need to be getting involved or thinking we dont. She’s an adult and makes her own choices. And I keep my contact. I said that because the three of them kept sending me three different versions of everything plus my mother fave a fourth. I had such a headache.
        🙏

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        Don

        Also, I don’t know if I’ve ever shared this one with you. It was published 5/13/2024. It’s a story that I wrote, and I think it will do you some good.

        Story Time: The Garden

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        I still have it on my page!
        Yes you did. Its great

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