The God I Cannot Escape

Lamentations 3:10–18  (10)He is a bear lying in wait for me, a lion in hiding; (11)he turned aside my steps and tore me to pieces; he has made me desolate; (12)he bent his bow and set me as a target for his arrow. (13)He drove into my kidneys the arrows of his quiver; (14)I have become the laughingstock of all my people, the object of their taunts all day long.  (15)He has filled me with bitterness; he has sated me with wormwood. (16)He has made my teeth grind on gravel, and made me cower in ashes; (17) soul is bereft of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is; (18)so I say, “My endurance has perished; so has my hope from the Lord.”(ESV)

The darkness kept getting worse.

The writer didn’t describe God as merely allowing suffering.  He described God as waiting for him, hunting him, tearing him apart, and making him a target.  Every image became more violent.  Every line pushed him deeper into the belief that God had turned against him.

There was nowhere to hide because the One he feared was also the One who filled every place he could run.

That’s what makes this kind of suffering so terrifying.  When people oppose us, we can pray for God to protect us.  When circumstances collapse, we can ask Him to make a way through them.  But what do we do when God appears to be the One closing every path?

The writer couldn’t escape His attention, move beyond His reach, or pray around His resistance.  God wasn’t absent.  He was frighteningly close.

By the end of this section, the writer had lost his peace, his strength, and nearly all memory of hope.  He’d followed the darkness all the way down and found no explanation waiting at the bottom.

Sometimes faith begins there—not with an answer, but with the honesty to admit that we no longer understand what God is doing.

3 responses to “The God I Cannot Escape”

  1. Annette B Avatar

    Who is the writer?

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    1. RW - Disciple of Yahshua Avatar
      RW – Disciple of Yahshua

      It comes acknowledged as anonymous, although many believe it to be Jeremiah.

      I personally think it is left anonymous so that the author doesn’t become the focus, but so that we open ourselves to the possibility that it could be anyone or everyone. That we have all been in this place of despair in our lives at one point or another. Just my two cents.

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      1. Annette B Avatar

        Lam 3 struck me along the same time as Isaiah. I was a new Christian and didn’t quite understand any relevance at that time.

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