The Inner Circle

Matthew 26:37  And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled.(ESV)

Jesus loved all of His disciples, but He only took three of them into His most vulnerable moments.  That wasn’t exclusion—it was discernment.  You can love someone without granting them access to your innermost garden.

Relationship imbalance isn’t sinful—it’s strategic

We often confuse fairness with sameness.  But in God’s kingdom, different roles exist for a reason.  If Jesus Himself had levels of relationship, why do we feel guilty for doing the same?

Emotion investment often exceeds emotional return

This is where people get hurt.  We assume our depth of feeling should be reciprocated.  But relationships aren’t mirrors; they’re assignments.  Sometimes you’re called to love someone who may never understand your value.  This doesn’t mean we harden our hearts—but we adjust our expectations.  Love can be sacrificial without being codependent.

Guard your garden

Jesus didn’t bring the twelve into Gethsemane.  He didn’t even bring the crowd.  When you’re going through something deep, you need people who won’t just walk with you but stay awake with you—even if they fail, like the three did when they fell asleep.  Their willingness, not their perfection, is what earned their place.

God will judge you on what you carried, not on who returned the favor

Sometimes we pour ourselves out for people who vanish when we need them most.  Don’t let that embitter you.  God sees what you carried.  He’s keeping score, even if no one else is.

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Who am I?

I’ve walked a path I didn’t ask for, guided by a God I can’t ignore. I don’t wear titles well—writer, teacher, leader—they fit like borrowed armor. But I know this: I’ve bled truth onto a page, challenged what I was told to swallow, and led only because I refused to follow where I couldn’t see Christ.

I don’t see greatness in the mirror. I see someone ordinary, shaped by pain and made resilient through it. I’m not above anyone. I’m not below anyone. I’m just trying to live what I believe and document the war inside so others know they aren’t alone.

If you’re looking for polished answers, you won’t find them here.
But if you’re looking for honesty, tension, paradox, and a relentless pursuit of truth,
you’re in the right place.

If you’re unsure of what path to follow or disillusioned with the world today and are willing to walk with me along this path I follow, you’ll never be alone. Everyone is welcome and invited to participate as much as they feel comfortable with.

Now, welcome home. I’m Don.

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