Walking With Christ

Reading through the book of Ruth. It’s short. That doesn’t mean that there isn’t revelation to be had.

Ruth 1:20-21 (20)She said to them, “Do not call me Naomi (pleasant); call me Mara (bitter), for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. (21)I went away full, and the Lord has brought me back empty. Why call me Naomi, when the Lord has testified against me and the Almighty has brought calamity upon me?”(ESV)

Naomi, like a lot of the prayers in Psalms, is being brutally honest. Her words are raw and full of pain. She had lost her husband and two sons. She no longer had a way to start over either because of her age.

Most people only speak to God when we need something, things are going well, or we feel that we have been “good enough”. How do you speak to God? How do you speak to God when you’re hurting, angry, confused, tired, happy, excited?

It took me a long time to realize that there were times in my life when I would not speak to God. It was almost like I didn’t want to bother Him with my troubles, worries, pains, fear, or failures. I didn’t want Him to know that I was angry. Especially when I was angry at Him. I didn’t trust Him enough to be able to understand the words I was NOT saying. I didn’t realize that the words I didn’t say were just as, if not more, important as the ones I did say.

Like Naomi, God is not done with me and better days are coming.